The Woman That...

I am the woman that still feels like a young girl at heart.
I'm not scared to laugh, to cry and to feel. Sometimes this gets me in trouble, but I am thankful.

I am the woman that plans.
I plan for this afternoon, and for the evening. I plan for tomorrow. I plan for next week. I plan even when I know that plan may not happen. I plan for the unexpcted and the expected. I plan for others. I plan for myself and for my family.

I am the woman that loves.
I love my my family more than I ever thought possible. I love the promise that I can be with them forever. I love my Father in Heaven for giving me this crazy, beautiful, life I live. I love yellow, chocolate, shoes, cosmetics, and good deals. I love the smell of the mountains, I love this beautiful Earth we have been given. I love the opportunity we have to start over, move on, make things right and begin again. I love the promise of tomorrow.

I am the woman that dreams.
I dream of a happy, healthy, family. I dream of motherhood. A family that knows that I love them without thinking for one second. I dream of hiding under covers and kisses from a dirty face. I dream of chubby toes and soft, sweet smelling hair. I dream of cries for "mommy," and "la-loo's." I dream of matching socks and putting pigtails in hair. I dream of this life of motherhood. I dream of being a wife and making dinner to a waiting famiy. I dream of companionship. I dream of long talks and hand holding. I dream of growing old but not growing up.

I am the woman that cares.
I care to a fault. I care until I have dug myself into a ditch only to climb out of it. I care for the stranger and for the friend. I care most for those who care for me.

I am the woman that worries.
I worry about yesterday, today, and tomorrow. I worry about the small things and the bigs things, the things I should worry about and the things I shouldn't. I worry, too much.

I am the woman that works.
I work for my little family. I work to "bring the bacon" and to keep us comfortable. I work to be independent. I work so my husband and I can create this life we live, on our own. I work because though it may be hard, it brings great satisfaction. I work to teach my daughter the importance of responsibility and perseverance. I work because I love them.

I am the woman that searches to find joy.
I find joy in this life we live. I find joy in my upbringing, in my family. I find joy in giggles and kisses from my husband. I find joy in sharing and smiling. I find joy in tomorrow and the day after. I search to find joy today.